Perhaps, at my age (17 years old), not many kids write letters to Ded Moroz. It's a pity that this belief in miracles is so imposed on us, and then with teenage rebellion, we reject it. After all, everyone lies about Ded Moroz, he exists. But I still think otherwise, this wizard with a gray beard... he truly exists, because HE - that is all of us! All this - we - those who participate in Secret Santa, those who give gifts to parents (this year it has become a very popular topic. and it's - very sweet) and those who create magic at children's matinees, some others, doing real magic, just like that.It is my friends who support my homosexuality. And you can count such people on the fingers of one hand. But I am not the only gay in Russia. Thanks to everyone doing good.Separately I will say that I am horrified by the censorship in the country.I'm sorry that I have to adapt not to say everything I want.To friends, relatives, close ones and just acquaintances.How tired I am of homophobia. This post is a reflection on the theme of all my New Year's mood and the miracle that, truly, surrounded me here and there. Sometimes unnoticeably, sometimes fleetingly, but into 2026 I go, filled with all this magic. May it be different in the new year.